Um lets see nothing has really been going on since I last updated on here...It sure has been a long while.. I am still working at portillo's and getting meniscule hours at the job.  12 hours give or take. i've been in my relationship for 2 months now, hurray. i hope things work out with this relationship cause i will seriously be taking a break for a long while and not deal with guys until i'm out of college. i do love freddy though, that's my baby.

i found out this this guy eugene that i know from a forum goes to illinois weslyan. we'll mos def be hanging out when i get back to school...i need alchohol. lol well not really, but it's a big want right now...some rum and coke would go down very nicely lol. i heard they closed down zaza's too! what the hell is happening in normal, while i'm away. the whole town is falling apart without me! lol but it's no biggie though there's other places down there.

Nothing new has occurred thus far...I'm still working and getting headaches from my job. I got more hours this week so it's all good, but if my bosses make me recount my drawer more than once again I'm gon have to hurt somebody.  It's crazy the grief they put me through sometimes. Oh well I guess that comes with the territory...Just one more month to go thankfully.

I really haven't seen my guy in the past 3 weeks and I seriously miss him. He went on vacation at some resort today with his family...I hope he has a nice time. The only thing that sucks is he could have seen me last week, but he saw his friend A the other day....I guess I was a little bit jealous about that, cause I don't get to see him that much as it is....sigh...I've gotten upset when I think about it sometimes. I know that sounds dumb though.  The 2 month anniversary is on the 17th....hopefully we'll get to do something....

I go back to school on August 7th and I found out that I would be getting tested on scenarios during the training sessions. I feel sorta scared about it now...cause what if I don't do well, will they fire me on the spot? I dunno...but oh well.

Well I'm just rambling now....there's really nothing to update about as you can see.

Peace-Candice

Wow I haven't blogged in a minute. Well nothing has really happened since I last updated this thing.  I'm still working at Portillo's with only like 12 hours a week which sucks. But oh well people weren't thinking about hiring my butt because I'm a college student, so I'll take what I can get when it comes to it. I need the money badly, so I guess I shouldn't be complaining lol.

I keep seeing all these weight loss challenges on TV and it's getting me motivated to try to lose weight yet again....I'm gon see if I can do it...I just get lazy sometimes, and when I don't see results I get mad then I say forget it. When I get to school for sure, I will be excising more, cause I have access to a gym while I'm down there....it's kind of hard at home cause there's really nothing to do but run and I hate running with a passion...lol. I guess I could use this as a weight loss type journal thing..I've seen a few of my friends do that in the past, so it seems like a good idea.

Another thing I've been working on lately is scholarships. I have about 5 of them that I'm working on and this 1,000 dollar one is one I really hope to get. It's from blackstudents.com and I have to write an essay. The question is Why do you think African American students are getting more college degrees now? or something to that effect.

Oh and I added one of my good friends Gina aka GinaakaBeba aka Bebagina...lol to be an author for my blogdrive...I've seen this on a couple of other blogs where they have invited their friends to write an entry about the person who owns the blog so I thought I'd go ahead and let her do it. She's been a great friend for a long while though so...enjoy. The post should be up in awhile.

Man....I'm pissed....I had a initerview at Blockbuster today....It was going just fine until he asked about me and college. He seriously did not look through my application and resume thoroughly enough because he didn't realize that I would be going back to school in August. What a dummy...sigh. Well I might have an opportunity to become a seasonal worker if I call in the winter when break comes around...I'm just kind of upset though because I have another interview at Walmart and I think they might do the same thing that Blockbuster did....I'm so pessimistic about it at this moment that I don't want to even bother going to the interview, but I guess I can go ahead and go. It won't hurt to hear what they have to say. I just had another interview at this place called Factory Card Outlet as well...the interview went ok...but I'd rather not work there.

I'm working at my old job at Portillo's now.  They fired my ex....I had to laugh out loud when I heard that....No wonder he hasn't called in awhile. LOL. It's no big deal though, I'm just glad he ain't there and I will not have to deal with his damn drama. The managers are getting on my nerves a lil bit but overall tolerable. I'll see what happens...It looks like I might get stuck working there for the summer but at least it's something lol. Oh well.

Peace.

I found out that I have an interview on Monday at a store called Factory Card Outlet...man it would be so much better working there than a damn fast food restaurant where I would have to work with my ex. It would suck majorly....I just don't feel like dealing with the drama and old history there...even though it is behind me, I shouldn't really have to have it thrown into my face everyday by my old co-workers either, especially the ex.  I can't believe he had the audacity to call me the other day.  I had told him to lose the number, but I guess he conveniently forgot that I told  him to do that....The bastard...oh well. 

Gosh I haven't seen my bf since last Tuesday....That's kinda weird since I used to see him like 2-3 times a week before. I'll get used to it though....cause what am I going to do when I get to school? We do go to different schools, so I will get through it alright. I of course love him to death to make anything work...

I sort of noticed that I talk about ex's and my bf quite a bit lately...I guess I've gone boy crazy...but this has been the subject that has been ruling...well has been very prevalent...in my life lately. Oh well...It happens like that sometimes.

But in other news, I'm supposed to be getting my check from Subway soon YAY. I mos def need me money. Gimme gimmee gimme lol

Ok I'm so tired of the government right now. My father requested for me to fill out the FAFSA form to see if I could get some monetary funds for the next school year. It doesn't look like I will get anything because of the EFC. I want to omit my parents financial info from the form because I know the situation. It happens every year. The parental units make too much money, but still, they don't have enough money to help me with school.  I'm tired of the government making me put this information down if it is not going to help me in the long run. That truly hurts my chances of getting any aid. They don't seem to take extraneous things into consideration....That really sucks. So right now I do not know what I'm going to do about it....I'm going to call my fin aid advisor tommorow to see what she says, but I have a feeling it is going to be very bad news. I hope it isn't though...This shit is stressing me out as of right now. Sigh....

Well I was supposed to have a job interview today at some place called Vector, Inc., but at the last minute I decided I don't want to be selling cutlery for the whole damn summer. I know I've been desperate to find a job lately, but not that desperate. I just need to start a new job SOON. This is driving me nuts....Then I found out I have to pay them a fee to get a set of cutlery to show off?? I don't think so.  I just mainly filled out more applications at stores around my house today. I wish one of those stores would have mercy on me and just give a sista a chance. I'm a hard worker who just needs an opportunity to make some money for myself, so I won't be struggling to buy books for next year.  I'm glad I only have a couple of years of school left, cause this money situation is gonna make my hair go gray if I'm not more careful about it. lol. i've also been talking to Freddy a lot lately and spending a lot of time with him. He really cherishes me, and I cherish and love him just as much. I'm so lucky to know that I have some that cares about me so much.  I've talked to him and his best friend a couple of times on the phone at the same time. Those conversations are quite interesting and laughable.  We all seem to be night owls and stay up til like 4 in the morning just talking about random crap...Lol that's going to have to change when school starts back around. I started writing poetry again the other day...I'm pretty happy with some of the stuff I've written. I'll post it up here sooner or later. I'm too lazy to type it out right now lol. Well other than that....there's really nothing to say...I'm just content with my life right now, except for the money situation. All is well in the life of Candice. lol

Well I haven't updated this thing in a good month or so, but I've been a very busy woman. lol. I'm finally out of school and done with finals. I have been out for about 3 weeks now and it surely has been a blessing coming home and seeing my family after like 3 months.

I just received some bad news about my great grandmother though...She's in her eighties right now and has had some major health problems in the last few years from stress and old age. She has been back and forth betweeen Mississippi and here for health reasons and family functions....She is out of the intensive care unit now and is fighting like a champ. I love her to death and I know God will take care of her very well. She is a WAITS. She is a strong black woman whom I respect greatly. 

On another front, I met somebody new who is treating me very well. In late April, I had started talking to a very important person in my life. His name is Freddy. We met each other for the first time and it was a great date, but a little rocky at the end of it. But then we hanged out a few times and I realized how much I enjoyed being around him and being with him. He treats me with so much respect. He's really talented and we always are on the same page with each other. I love the fact that he can usually tell what I'm thinking and just complete my sentences...The facct that he has a weird/smart-alec type of humour like I do is great as well. He has me smiling. I appreciate him being in my life and I will never take him for granted.  About a few weeks ago we decided to make things official, so we are now boyfriend and girlfriend...I love him a lot and wouldn't trade him for the world. He mos def is the PROTOTYPE...I really haven't been online that much because of him. That's actually a good reason not to be on the net. lol. Not that I don't love talking to my friends on here, but I gotta get out of the house every once in awhile and spend time with family, friends, and my love.  I didn't think that I was going to be with someone special like this, but I'm glad that we found each other. I hope this lasts for a very long time.

Other than that, I'm still not working yet. I haven't really gotten any news from these damn employers out here. Shyt I have experience in so many areas...I should have something by now. I hope someone picks up that phone soon and calls cause I need to start saving money for a car, books, expenses....all that stuff. Sigh that stuff can get depressing to think about unfortunately..

I did go to The Cheesecake Factory for the first time today. The food in there was FIRE. da real truth. Freddy finally took me there and I got my suculant (sp) slice of white chocolate truffle cheesecake, that had some extra whipcream on top.....whooo i was savoring that cheesecake for at least 30 minutes tonight. I was so full from all the food. lol Then after dinner Freddy, me, his friend and his woman went bowling. Man I am starting to get back into the swing of things with that. I forgot how much I missed playing that game. When I get into the zone, shoo you better watch out. We were talking shyt about each other too, which made it all the more fun lol...I wish the night could have been longer, but alas my town closes down sort of early in the week, so there's really nothing to do after midnight. oh well I plan on seeing him on saturday anyways. no biggie! lol Well it looks like I am babbling so I am going to end this and say TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY.lol