Well I finally returned back to the NW burbs of the Chi. It's really good to be home. I finally got to see my brother and sister, who I haven't seen since late February. It's crazy how much bigger they have gotten. I was the baby sitter for tonight....Man little kids can really bite you without any type of warning...My baby bro acted like he was going to kiss me then went for my shoulder and snatched my glasses off my face....of course I had to put him down after that...the little cannibal. lol. 

It was a huge task hauling my stuff downstairs from the elevator earlier today...man they need to seriously go ahead and get another elevator. Once a piece of equipment malfunctions every 2-3 weeks, that's telling you something. Replace the damn thing!  We would have to wait forever for the elevator to come back down and up. A serious waste of time, but we got outta the room at a decent time.  I've been mainly just trying to get this room in order all day...This room pretty much became storage space over the time I was gone lol.

Yes, it is pretty much the end of another year at Illinois State.  I had my final class today in Graphic Design. I turned in my projects and now all I have to worry about is doing my last 2 finals, which of one is a take home final. How great is that ish. Hopefully, my GPA will be up this semester, so I can apply to the honors program for next year. It'll be great! I think that I'm done with my minor in spanish too, but I want to go ahead and take a few more courses just for my peace of mind. I'm horrible at speaking in spanish, but I can write pretty well.

I'm going home in about a week, and I can't wait.  I need to go ahead and find a job when I get back, and I plan on visiting a few people that  I haven't seen in so long.  I have to keep in touch with my old friends..these are people that I can see being cool with for a long time.

Well, it seems like I'm stuck down here by myself with nothing to do for the weekend again.  I didn't really bother to go to class today...My friend told me that I better go to class or he was gon kick my ass....lol well I do need to make it through these last two weeks. I'm gon actually go to ALL of my classes for the next week. I gotta do it, or I'll be fucked up as to what will be on the finals.  Gosh I have two projects due next week too....crazy how much you have to do at the end of a semester.  I will surely get it done though.  Gotta take care of ish...It's important to my GPA, lol.

On the emotional front, things are going ok for the moment.   Just waiting to get on home to my lil brother and sister.  Can't wait for those lil kids to be wakinig me up at 6-7 in the morning jumping on the bed saying "SISSY WAKE UP!" When I was at home, that would get on my nerves, but now that I've been away for so long, it'll be welcome to hear that once or twice. I'm sure that'll change when it happens though. Lol. My lil brother especially is gonna be a sight to see. He's going to be 2 in august....I swear I treat that baby just like I'm his mom...I'm so overprotective and ish when I'm around him.  I love that baby so much. Love you Darian! lol like he'll ever be able to read this right! hehe.  My sister is turning out to be almost like me when I was a kid...It's so cute how she reminds me of myself.  Getting too old for her own good...lol watch out for Miss Thang.  I love the both of them to death though.  I think I'll go ahead and call them tommorow...

I guess I should go ahead and start studying for finals this weekend since I don't have anything else to do.  Oh well. Another exciting weekend, here I come!

Man my 35mm camera was acting up today for some reason....I took a whole freaking roll of film and it didn't develop. It looks like the film didn't advance like it was supposed to. Likely, it was all my fault...grrr.. Now I have to go shooting all over again. I guess I'll do it this weekend, cause I want to come up with another concept for my series anyways...Oh well.

Damn I have been so lazy lately today. I really didn't have the will to get up today to go to class.  Since it has been so busy, I just needed another day off. I can't even believe it's Wed. already.   Today, I have to work a close shift unfortunately....blah. Gotta make that money the best way I know how right now, though.  BLAH BLAH BLAH.

I don't think I have that job for RA next year either.  I had got a letter saying I was accepted as an alternate RA, but I just take that as another rejection...Eh, what a waste. I seriously needed that job too, but I must go ahead and figure out something else to do.  It's cool though...I guess I'll go ahead and work at Subway again next year..maybe become an assistant manager or something. who knows...

Today, I started thinking about what's in store for me for the next year to come....Honestly, I am afraid right now because who knows if I'll be able to return to school.  This question has been plaguing me for the whole year and I do not know what I'm going to do. I hope I don't have to take a year off next year, but if that is what I'll have to do....I'm just going to have to do it.  I'm already so in the mode of just going to school, I doubt I'd just get used to working full-time for some minimum wage job...Not like I could get anything better than that...But the bottom line is, I wouldn't have to do this if my parents would just help me. So far, loans have been the way for me to go to school. Why does this have to plague me right now? I have been thinking about this too much lately....too much drama, too much unknown. what is next for me....the hell if i know.....

peace.

Well I'm updating for the third time today....what to say....um..lol. Well I forgot one of the most important people that I know, Keith. Hon, you really put a smile on my face. Thanks for always listening to me and being there as shoulder to lean on.

Ah, I forgot to mention a few people on here....Eddie, Gina...ya'll have been great. Thanks so much. Eddie you happy I said your name now? hehe.

Well there is a first time for everything and I guess it's time for a new journal.  I've seen a few of my friends have jumped on the bandwagon and started a blog, so I thought I would too...

For starters, today was well..just like any other day. I'm at school right now and it's like the year is drawing to a close so fast.  I was seriously thinking about staying down here over the summer to just work, but family is where my heart is right now, so I'm going back to see my baby brother and sister. 

This week coming up is going to be very challenging fa sho, because I have so many projects and papers to catch up on.  Stress pretty much sums up being a college student at Illinois State right now. I enjoy doing it though because it brings me even closer to my goals.  A lot of people have been there for me lately and I just gotta say what's up to Byron (ScaryMan), Orion (nightmarez), Drew (hobbes), Eboni (Xaviergyrl), and a host of other friends that I have.  Thanks for all the support ya'll.

Oh and I gotta give a plug to my friend Byron's site and forum http://www.scaryman.com/forum make sure to check it out!

Peace.